Sunday 29 March 2015

Strange Dream: Woken Up by an Alarm in a Dream.

I dreamt that my alarm clock had gone off. I woke up, in my dream and scratched a mosquito bite on my belly, and brooded.

Then I realized my alarm clock and bolted out of bed. I check the clock. It is 6pm. Weird!

This is as close to a nightmare as I have had in a while.

What does it mean?

Thursday 26 March 2015

Nature Anxiety

This is a thinking note I left for myself. I thought it might be interesting, because we are all humans 
( ?? :) ), and we might just share this feeling too.

I am scared of nature. I've always been like this.
Everytime I wake up early to go for a hike, I feel vulnerable and so free. To compensate, I have a stress response.

It's not a fear of anything in particular. It's not like a fear of spiders, the dark or heights.

It's a deep reminder of mortality, of impending doom, of a return to nature. A loss of structure. I wonder if that is natural.

Why? I want to disseminate this fear.

What is the root of the fear?

Is it hereditary? Or is it an insecurity?
A natural effect of doing something outside one's comfort zone?
Bad experiences?
Desperation? Expression of love for the wild?
Or because I am a city person?

Terror Management

I wonder if this is being used to market outdoor products...because there is such a theory called terror management.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terror_management_theory

In short, people know they are mortal, and knowing that their time is limited, we loosen up and are more likely to buy that gadget you've always wanted.

Maybe that's what my fear is. The innate fear of mortality, and the subsequent life I pursue.

Relation to outdoor experiences & Therapy

All outdoor activities leads to me being more aware of these anxieties and being able to recognize and cope with them. Like sports climbing. The first wall I ever climbed, I took a full 2 hours. I reached the top at closing time. But after that, I managed to do it in 1, then 20 minutes. Of course, a skilled climber should do it within 3 minutes. But point is, I felt less scared every time. That's what matters.

Experiencing the outdoors removes the fears of ignorance. Therapy reduces and helps me understand fears of past experiences.

End

I still have it. As much as fear is considered a negative emotion, I think it's extremely interesting and deep. The more I hike, swim, photograph, interact with nature, the more it becomes a sense of reverence. It is as if we have fallen out of nature, and feel the need to get back in.

v1.0 Published March 26 2015.

Tuesday 24 March 2015

Mountain Craft: Round 2!

After the first round, I was eager to sign up for the next one as soon as possible. The instructors were just superb considering how tiny the course expenses were.

What I learnt this time round.

1. Waterproof Everything!

Remember how we bagged everything in all kinds of plastic bags in AYP?

Well, the instructors here took it to another level. They used immersion-class dry-bags for everything (except the tent and water)! First Aid Kit, sleeping bag, mat, food, emergency rations, map. Everything was color coded and could be pulled out in an instant. That was pro.

Maybe one could even swim across rivers with that setup.

2. Hydrate, eat on the way there.

Courses are a bit different. They are really rushed. I didn't know this the first time. I arrived at the meeting point in a hurry, carrying my brunch that should have been in my belly by then. We were so busy doing mapwork and leading, I didn't get to touch it until late afternoon.

Always be comfy.

3. Reduce base-weight! (shelter, cookset, sleeping bag, mat, rucksack = your base weight.)

These are your heaviest items. Try to cut these down.

If you know how to camp without a tent, but you will be very dependent on campsite selection.  

4. Reduce weight further by only bringing calorie-dense food.

Rice is great, if you are great at cooking it! Foil-packed instants are great too!

Vegetables take up lots of weight but don't give much calories.

Preserved meats are safer than fresh meat. My group risked food poisoning by bringing minced meat, which was frozen in a bag for a whole day.

Can food is pretty heavy for what nutrition it contains. It was actually banned on the course. On a multi-day trip, they would just be too heavy.

5. There are whistles, and WHISTLES!!! Have the latter.



Use a storm whistle. In fact, get any whistle so loud you ears will ring.

Which brings me to this question - Do people really care, let alone come to your rescue if you blow your whistle, use your distress signal or start a big smokin' signal fire? I haven't come to a satisfactory answer from anybody, but I'm guessing...nope. Most people will ignore you if they can. (Personally, I would go check it out to satisfy my curiosity.) I mean, who uses a whistle when you have a phone?

The only time it may be useful would be when there is someone looking for you, or expecting it. Like a lifeguard, or survivor waiting for rescue.

6. Always use a tent footprint.

Footprints will protect the tent floor from abrasion, water and everything else. 
Footprints will also improve comfort and insulation.
You can make your own footprint out of sheet plastics.

7. Don't bother boiling water.

I don't know...maybe it's caught on now, but campers in Hong Kong are also starting to not boil their water.

I've seen people use iodine, chlorine bleach, other chemical treatments*, and UV. I'm thinking about a filter, just because they are less prone to failure than UV or chemicals, can remove some organic pollutants and leave no nasty tastes.


8. It's not about the gear.

Gear is important, but don't get carried away. 
Have everything you require, and stop there. 
I did all the camping in a HKD99 2-person tent. It worked fine and I slept well, with 3 other guys.
My backpack is 10 years old and everything still works great. I proudly carried it among the Ospreys, Mountain Wolfs and Deuters. 
My sleeping bag is equally old. It's served me well everywhere and I have no plans to change it unless there is a revolutionary new tech.
My trekking poles are also ancient. They work fine and I would have no hard feelings if I dropped them off the hillside.

Be one with nature, and let nothing be in your way.

End. 

I took this course with another group. This group put less emphasis on navigation skills, and far greater emphasis on equipment, technique, cooking, camping and leadership. I came away with the skill to make some very tasty camp meals (2 dish + 1 soup + non-burnt rice + dessert), pitch a tent in until 10 min, practiced making first-aid scenario decisions quickly and the desire to do more backpacking.


Thursday 19 March 2015

15 Wonderful Cleaning Tips

Ever since my family gave up having a housemaid, we have been doing most of our own cleaning.

And we've always been finding hacks to make it faster, safer, cleaner.

But then I read this...

http://mentalfloss.com/article/62170/15-brilliant-life-hacks-speed-your-spring-cleaning

Some work, some...just don't.

1. ADD A LAZY SUSAN TO YOUR FRIDGE

Sounds good, but the decks aren't tall enough for this...

2. DISINFECT YOUR SPONGE

I tried it. My sponge smelt of burnt plastic. Not sure if should use it or not.

We use hot water and bleach instead. Hot bleach and microwave maybe??

3. DON’T FORGET TO CLEAN THE GARBAGE DISPOSAL

The lemon will just rot after a while. Salt? Sounds like a waste of perfectly yummy salt! And Ice cubes? That's just going to melt into water, which will lead to mould.

We use garbage bags with old newspapers lining the bottom. The newspapers prevent bag puncture and soaks up any garbage juice.

4. TIME YOURSELF

Now that's good advice. 

I'm a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to cleaning. Whatever worth doing is worth doing well, right?

Nooo...

Cleaning is a never-ending task. Like roadworks. THe moment you've done the length of the road, it's probably time to start again.

5. WAX YOUR STOVETOP

That's a good idea. Especially if your stovetop is all scratched up and stuff.

6. USE A LEMON TO CLEAN STAINLESS STEEL FAUCETS

Yup. Good idea. If you want a cheaper solution, use baking soda.

7. STEAM-CLEAN YOUR MICROWAVE

Yup. Another good idea. 

8. MAKE SPACE FOR CLUTTER

Clutter takes space too. 

We would add though, that it's far more important to not clutter.

Duh...right? Well, took me about a decade to learn this.

9. WASH YOUR WINDOWS ON A CLOUDY DAY

That's wise. Never thought of that.

10. DUST WITH FABRIC SOFTENER SHEETS

Or...how about not dusting? Dusting takes effort better used to just wipe down the dusty surface and get rid of all the dust.

11. TOSS EXPIRED TOILETRIES

Expired sunscreen? Never tried that before...

Tossing out the old can be hard, especially if you have special attachment to whatever you buy. I find it's just better to queue up my toiletries and use them in order, without storing more than 2 month's inventory.

12. USE A HAIR DRYER TO BANISH WATER RINGS

Really? I've got to try that.

13. USE YOUR DISHWASHER FOR MORE THAN DISHES

No dishwasher...always wanted one though! I hate doing the dishes.

14. CLEAN YOUR DISHWASHER

Really? You have to clean your dishwasher??

Say, I've heard of those washing machines that double as dishwashers. Why can I never seem to find them here?

15. CLEAN YOUR SHOWERHEAD

Important. Showerhead mould can lead to mould everywhere. So clean everywhere at once, including the showerhead!

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Afterthoughts:

Annotating webpages is fun! Is there an app for that?

Tuesday 17 March 2015

Re: On Character

This post is a response to http://voiceofsamuel.blogspot.hk/2015/02/on-character.html

I don't think I need to state that this is a complex and personal topic. I've taken almost a month to finish this off.

Character is one of those words I know but have never explored. It's vague and mysterious to me, and I hate ambiguity (personality trait!). I am more familiar with words like personality, values, ethics. That's why I am drawn to it.

I certainly do feel the desire, to construct my own identify and behaviour according to some to ideal or principle; ...

I certainly do too. When I read Ayn Rand, I want to be an industrialist, like John Galt. When I read Chomsky, I thought linguistics to be what I want to study, and I should be a polymath. When I read about Alan Turing, I thought AI was what I wanted to do. and that being a nerd is a virtue.

It's all good. 

yet I end up saying what I think and act on my gut feeling. 

Yup. That's what we all do. It's the cliche/fact that the conscious mind is far slower than the unconscious mind. (This is only natural, because the conscious experience is but the product of a vast amount of unconscious processes. Every conscious entity must have a far larger unconscious in the background). I often wish I was more in control of my behavior, but I can only handle so much cognitive load, over which performance drops precipitously. 

Welcome to the human experience!

"The gut feeling". It's up there with "the ghost in the shell", "soul" and "closed source software" in ambiguity. Our gut feelings are but the subconscious, shaped by the past.

Not in a bad way. Everyone has their own character, and there's no need to explicitly change who you are. From a Christian perspective, I am a special creation by God, with all my strengths and blunders. For the postmodernist, everyone can have their own different yet equally valid ideal - so why not just try to be myself? 

I've tried to try being someone else other than me too! It's hard work and demotivating. It looks fake from the outside, it's manipulative, deceptive and ultimately a waste of time. So why do we do it?

For me, it was a fear of not "fitting in". The fear of rejection is extremely powerful stuff. It can cause self-sabotage, self-attack, self-censorship self-denial, all of which makes the fear worse, because when I realized I was doing this, I realized other people could see this too. And so I need to deny myself some more. 

Like one time I was on exchange, and I was asked, just about every night, to go clubbing. I guess the social part of me really wanted to go check out Korean nightlife, but overall, I felt anxiety, tiredness and the prospect of window-shopping excited me more. My social part would start with "hmmm I wonder what it's like..." but then move on to "You won't go because you're just scared." At the end of the day, I took a compromise and tried it. That night turned out to be fun but I wouldn't want to do it any more than monthly.

Sometimes, I find that one has to do what feels best overall, even if you feel peer pressure or "abnormal" or whatever self-rejecting occurs. (For the latter - go seek professional help.)

Perhaps others value my true self, rather than me trying to be someone I'm not. 

Hmmm...you got me thinking on this one. It sounds absolutely correct, but my gut says otherwise.

Firstly, what is the true self? It's elusive. Multi-layered, multi-dimensional, seamless. What is Eugene's true self? Is it when he is blogging, working or hiking?

How about a conundrum? What if you trying to be someone you're not IS in fact part of your "true self"? Because then, the two would hardly be a dilemma.

Secondly, you will always find people who value you, whatever you are. It's like 


There are customers for just about everything, and goods that satisfy demand you might not have even dreamt of. At the same time, I think what we value in others goes on so many levels. I may value my doctor for skill and expertise, but not care at all about his character. Or like how I have the occasional sports friend, whose skills, fitness and humor are great, but whom I don't know much about. We rarely like someone because every aspect of their character were valuable to us.

On another level, you need others to value you. That's perfectly fine. Humans generally do need to feel valued by others. But I would say that is not why you should be honest - it is inherently in your self-interest and the interest of others to be honest, because it ensures harmony and happiness. 

"It will help you not to expect that fulfilment from people who you already know are incapable of giving it." Henri Nouwen.


OK. All in all, it's an interesting, to-the-point piece. I have a question. What was it that inspired/caused you to write this?